Crossroads always come in your life
You choose one and let the other go
I always chose the one – right, good, practical
for me
But, this one time it’s difficult
My life changes if I take the wrong turn, take
the wrong pick or go with the wrong option
But no, it’s not only about that
Had it been, I would have been hesitant
In choosing my education, profession, even my
location
But this one time, it’s different
Matters of the heart, fuck up the head
Rose coloured glasses, blur your vision
Confusion, utter madness takes over
And this frustration wells up my eyes
And I cry.
Why is it so difficult to let go and move on?
Why is it so difficult to forget and start anew,
afresh?
All will be, all right in time to come
My heart will heal and pieces fuse back into
one,
But this period, of deciding to hold on or let
go,
Is difficult, it’s killing me.
No I am not depressed,
I can still laugh and make people laugh,
Still do my work well, and go out and shop
But despite all the pretense, the outward
appearance
I know something’s amiss
I am not me anymore
And I want this to end.
I am afraid of taking a wrong turn, choosing the
wrong bend.
Crossroads always come in life,
You choose one and let the other go,
That is how we grow!
(I hope I am able to choose right and grow out
of it soon)
Written on 12th February 2013